13th February 2022
How are you? I hope you’re doing well these days. I hope you’re eating well and sleeping well and making lots of new friends where you are. I’m writing to you because I miss you, I’m thinking about you and I’m a little ashamed to say I cry when I realise how much I miss having you in my life physically. I miss your face and your voice. I miss the way we’d talk, even when I’m being an insufferable brat about things. You always hold me in a space of grace though it must be draining at times.
Is life treating you kindly? I hope that it is, you deserve all the kindness and love you can take into yourself. Listening to Mitski because of you and I hope you and I could listen to her together one day. I would really like that for us and maybe we can have dinner together this year if you’re back in the country. I’m so proud of you for doing your thing and being brave despite all the things that seem to panic me. I know the world is so scary but I hope I can be like you and find the courage to face it. Heh, I can’t stop talking about how great you are to others. I just want to only put good vibes into the energy I convey about you.
As for me, I’ve not been doing so well. I find it hard to go from day to day but I’m still here trying. I thought it would be a good idea to write to you to ease some of the sadness. It’s like talking to you but more longform. Maybe by the time you get your vest (it’s a bit big but I hope you like it, I don’t know what size of small man they have in Scandanavia), there’ll be a few of these included for your reading. Do you even like letters? you know, I never really asked but I hope that you don’t mind all these. I feel like it’s a little snippet of life here for you to read about.
My in laws (not that one), offered us a room to stay and I’m scared of moving and living with people I barely know. I don’t want to be a burden to them, they seem like really nice people and they planted fruit trees around the land like breadfruit. Do you remember the taste and crispiness of fry breadfruit? It’s hard to forget the taste and texture. I wish you got breadfruit in Cali, it would be amazing for you to have the comforts of home food. I want to send some things to you and I hope I have the money to do it all for you so that you feel piece of home with you. Conan fell in some motor oil recently and we spent two days bathing him to get it all out. He’s a bit sore from wherever he fell but he’ll be ok. Today he meowed so brightly so that’s a good sign. I finally made the wall hangings too, they came out so well but you’ll probably see those on instagram in the coming days.
That’s all I really have to say for now, I’ll write more another time. Hopefully with more good news than bad for you. I don’t want you to feel bad for me, I’m trying my best and hoping it’s enough. I just want you to think about being your best self. Remember to take breaks between studying and lab work. And to take pictures of lots of cats and everything else
I love you